mungkin

fell in love with the guy who sang this at the ranch.. he dedicated it to me! *excited* i love his voice and the way he sang this song!! *clap clap*

what's new?

1. i bought myself a car. it's white, spacious, auto ;) and i'm loving the about-45-minutes drive to and from work.
2. i went to Nepal (as you can already see in my previous post).
3. i was admitted for minor infection and inflammation of soft ribs bone, probably something i got from the trip.
4. i'm handling benzene shipment now (work related, don't bother asking/trying to understand).
5. haven't been reading much lately, but subscribed Reader's Digest. loving the free gifts.
   
6. realized that my circle of friends are closing in really fast. not so good.
7. easily irritated lately.
8. found a new place to stay. moving in mid Dec and probably will be celebrating Christmas there. really really excited. it's a house. house. i won't have to deal with parking problems, guards, mean people at lifts, waiting for the lift, and i can have BBQs and friends can smoke anywhere. LOL.
9. found a new and expensive hobby: traveling.
10. have a list of things i have to buy and all items are more than RM500. oh man..
    

Long Break

It has been a while since I've updated anything on this page. Evan has been asking when I'll put more things on.

I just can't be bothered anymore since I've start working. I don't even have time for myself. But then, maybe (MAYBE) after today I'll make it an afford to update anything interesting here. so for now, since the last time I wrote anything on this, here's some of the interesting moments in my life. LOL

1. I've learn how to solve a Rubik's cube.
2. I got myself a Canon IXUS camera. Coolest thing ever!
3. Oh yes, I have a job now.
   
4. I had 2 awesome weekends. will upload pics on that later.
5. Joined the company's badminton tournament and our team got 2nd! I played women doubles, 3 games - won 1, draw 1 and lose 1. LOL. And one more thing, I twisted my ankle at the first game. Darnest!!
6. i can't think of any anymore.
   

well that's about it for now i guess. i'll write more later! nak tido dah!!!

the new begining

updates updates... some interesting and yet some less interesting things are happening in my life lately. i can't really say that everything is A ok but most of it are. ;p

first of all, i finally got THE job!! from Mr. P of coz. thank u thank u... after like almost 6 months i think, was under depression (well, not really considering the fun party poker nights in Miri) and so so frustrated that everyone else got something from Mr. P earlier than me, Thank God i finally secured a place in Mr. P's company. hehe! it ain't really what i was looking forward to, or what i've been learning bout either, but i guess i could do better in this side of the business. everything happens for a reason right? i believe so.. yep yep! and but then again, i'll only start on the 16th of February where i have to attend some brain washing session for bout 3 weeks i think, then i'll be that office chick (cheewahh...!!).

secondly, i bank in the deposit for my new room, brand new okay... at Sterling Condo, Kelana Jaya. superbly amazing most awesome luck to have a middle room with attached bathroom, with angle walls which i can think of many creative things to work with, and twinkling view of the city from the 18th floor. uuuhhhh!!! and guess what, i'm renting it for only RM400 per month. ain't that lucky??? i do think so considering the view, the room and the fact that i'm the first owner of THAT room! hooyeah!! and gosh i tell u, the condo area is i'll say, 4 stars, to me la. my friend said that's jus a 2 or 3 stars standard. but hell 'em, it's more than i ever expected! the pool is huge! there's a gym room, everything else is so near-by. i love it! i just love it!!

then there's a new addiction which i can't really talk about but we'll get there one day aite. ;p not sure how many people maybe judging that post IF and only IF i decided to post if out. but then, that thing, made life easier and more interesting.

oh and did i mention i got myself a new iPod shuffle. it's pink! ;p i know it only cost less then RM200 but that's like the most expensive present i've ever got from anyone, okay!! yep yep.. i'm happy and was smiling the whole day, the day i got it. hehe!

one the other side of the sun however, things didn't go so well. the so called perfect relationship ended. it wasn't anything bad. he's still a nice guy despite his confusion bout the future and all. can't really let it be blamed on him but, lets just say i wasn't expecting him to be doing such stuffs. no details ok. ;) all i can say, Love, it was too, my best year ever.

the whole period from convocation day up to today, i'm gratefull for having the chance to get to know some wonderful people. went to few parties and dinners. really really glad that i gotta chance to make new friends.

it has been a hell of a ride towards the end of 2008, but for this year, 2009, i can see shining things around me already and it's just the end of the first month! i'm glad that it's a good start this year. well, guess it should be a good year since it's my year! the year of the mighty OX!! hoooyeahhh!!

there's another 11 months through this year, and the ups and downs, will come by but one thing i promise myself, that i'll be happy all year round, not to dwell on any negetivity and to be grateful for all the blessings i got and will be getting throughout the year!

cheers!!

that urge

urgh.. i hate it. that urge to do something that u know u'd love to do but u know u can't do coz it's bad but u really really want to but u know u just can't. u know that feelin'? irritating kan? it's like your brain already told u that it's bad and logically u know u shouldn't but your heart just says 'Go for it!'. then u're gonna be like.. should i follow my heart or my brain? haha! this thing i wanna do, i know it's bad and i know it's not gonna give me anything else but comfort, satisfaction and probably some interesting conversations which might end with something sooo messed up and soooo bloody wrong. LOL! but then again, at least it's there to make days and nights interesting and hard at the same time.

ps: tattoo of 2 cards - an Ace and a 7 of hearts. cool?

am i guilty?

how would it be like if one day someone came up to u and tell u that because of u, his/her life has changed entirely? when all they could think of is u, all great pleasures in life can't be enjoyed because they kept comparing it to u or what it's like if u were apart of it. how would u feel?? will it make u feel guilty for making those decisions in the past? would it make u feel like crap?

all i could say is i'm sorry, but not once, not even after i know all this, will i regret what i did. i never regret anything in my past because i believe that there's always a reason to it. even tho u'd say that i should, and if i'm not that i'm a horrible person, i couldn't care less. coz i know, if i've done differently, i won't be here right now, knowing you, him, her and them. and for that, i am thankful enough for not having any regrets. ;)

Internetless

so susah.. no internet at home :(
no updates soon. hopefully after New Years..

what i've been doin?
let's see.. club, club, drink, more clubs.. sleep eat and i go jogging jugak
eat sleep eat sleep
design the interior of my new home :) it was fun but tiring..
shopping, baking and then eat again..
hehe ;p
hang out at the beach taking poyo pictures.. well...
long phone conversations with sayang.. uh.. saya rindoo kamoo!!

so far, it has been fun and boring at the same time.
but still, appreciating every second of it.

it's going up now

... is it? probably.. it's about time.. ;)

Am I too old???!!

job hunting day.. went to a shopping mall. not really ready to be doing something in the professional world. ;p
so, i went and ask this one tiny gift shop.

'hi, mek mok apply k keja kosong ya (pointing to the vacancy notice)' (translation: hi, i wana apply for the job.)
she looked at me and say, 'sapa nok mok keja?' (who's the one applying?)
duhhhhhh~~!! didn't i said me?? 'kamek la..'
the 2 girls behind the counter looked at each other and gave me THE face. that face which said, can't you see how old you are. cis cis cis....!!! then they said, 'boss mek kat KK. try kol nombo sia la.' (my boss is in KK, try calling that number there laaa.)

sigh.. i think i went to all the shops with 'VACANCY' at their entrance. aaaaaa!!! and this 50 year old PC i'm using at the internet cafe here ain't helping my mood.

sigh.. again.. sigh..

Akibat curi2 rokok

Since there's no other interesting 'whatever' happening in my life lately, this one tops the most interesting moments for the last 2 months of my life. hahaha!

So, kids.. don't curi2 smoke when your parents are at home. although you know that they were sleeping, the slightest sound around can make you run like a frighten mouse. hahahahaha!

Lesson learn: stop smoking, if you haven't start, don't. it can hurt you then slowly kills you. ;)

(i'm stopping. just not yet. shut up!)

Is it Love, Mr. Right?

i read a note-post in my facebook by a friend of mine. She said that, if your other half have all this...

" is it easy to be together?

do you have good physical chemistry?

do you have fun together?

do you feel safe with him, knowing that he won't lie, hurt you, humiliate or abandon you?

and do you respect him as he is right now (and does he in turn respect you)?"

(which she quoted from Mira Kirshenbaum, author of "Is He Mr Right?"), then he's Mr. Right. reading that it really made me think bout, of course, my Mr. Love.

is it easy to be together? - if easy, as in it's easy to be with or see each other any time of the day, whenever we want to, then it's not. to fly that 3 hours flight across the South China Sea to him is not, and i repeat, NOT CHEAP! but as far as the relationship goes, other than being apart it ain't that hard compared to my other Mr. I-thought-was-Mr-Right. then again, it's not easy to be together.. :(

do you have good physical chemistry? - YES (no elaboration needed) ;p

do you have fun together? - yes yes yes and yes.. that's how we fell for each other. ;)

do you feel safe with him, knowing that he won't lie, hurt you, humiliate or abandon you? - now this, was the question that made me stop a while and think back through all those unpleasant moments we had. but, being in a relationship you have to be fair and one thing for sure is that my Mr. Love and i believe that fairness can solve everything. easy.. before doing or say anything, put yourself in your partner's shoes. if upon doing that you surely won't get hurt, then, if you partner end up, one day, doing or saying that thing, you have no rights whatsoever, to get mad or say, "i'm hurt.." and give that face. fair right? but being the naturally emotional creature on earth, no matter how you think you won't get hurt with what you're about to do, eventually when they were the one doing it, you or rather us girls will surely crush. how can we know he won't lie? or hurt us? of course not humiliate us la, if that's so you'd be stupid to be drooling over that guy who actually have the heart to humiliate his own girlfriend. and abandon you? how to be sure? i think i have to come up with a contract or make him actually swear that he'll make me feel safe, won't lie or hurt me and even won't humiliate or abandon me. ;p will it be fair? then i'll have to do the same. sigh.. i have no answer to this one. :(

and do you respect him as he is right now (and does he in turn respect you)? - yes and yes. ;)

if, says the author, any one of the above point is missing, then he's not Mr Right.

so.. ??

Pusuk depression

I slept at 11am
woke up at 7pm
sat in front of the telly for a while
thinking bout that stupid ending of Dancing Days
how stupid? they went of on a Honda kapchai at the age of..
I don't know, old.
with nothing to do, i went down
took the pusuk container
clean every one of them, taking their head off
my mind was empty.
it went on for an hour plus
dah habis.. now what?
i took a bath and came online.
now i'm hungry. sigh..
boring..

p/s: pusuk is ikan bilis in Sarawak language. just fyi.

it's annoying when..

every time u go online there's this one bastard pm u right away and say 'hi.. how r u? free to chat?'. every single time u go online in a day, even when u just got dc for a minute. freak! (of coz this applies to those yg u baru kenal or just added in ym. yeah.. first few days they were nice and say 'i just wanna be your friend' or 'i got ur id from ___ (someone really close to u that u would think that ur-that-friend would give ur id to a freak)'. u know what i mean??!!)

ugly-money-less guys on motorcycles start 'ciut-cuiting' and saying stuffs like 'aiee.. sombongnye. apa nama? cik adik cantik.. boleh berkenalan..?'. why ain't there guys in suits in their bmws' goin around doing that???

my bf insist me on watching thriller movies when clearly i can't. no, i don't want!!! :(

i kill one mosquito then 4 more came buzzing around my ears. oh, and when they bite my tapak kaki. urgh!

it's too quiet.

small children cry wanting something in the middle of everyone in a mall. very.. annoying..

adults trying to be cute with kids. it really just make u look stupid u know, goin ba! ba!. arse..

i wake up hungry yet b4 bed i ate 2 bungkus nasi lemak. where did it all go???!!

after i say something and ppl ask 'why?' over and over again. i did that.. when i was 2. i'm not 2 anymore and so r u.

ppl ask me where i'm going.. and with who.. and doing what.. and...

*to be updated from time to time.. ;)
*taken from my facebook. let's see what kinda hits we get here!

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