time flies.. slowly

the ups and downs apparently haven't really ended yet. yet. really really thought that it all ended that particular day. urgh. this feeling is shitty. honestly, i can't even say for sure this time that things will eventually pass. i'll be counting days till that day when i wake up thinking what to wear instead of what he's doing or is he up yet or did he sleep well or was he doing anything before bed. the vow. when till it'll be broken? i wish i can know. but if so, will i be okay? oh love, why can't you be easy, why can't you be the-right-thing-to-do.

counting days: day 5.

mungkin

fell in love with the guy who sang this at the ranch.. he dedicated it to me! *excited* i love his voice and the way he sang this song!! *clap clap*

lerv

... That's what he calls me. It ended, just. Not that we hate each other, no. We love, we care and want to be together. We just can't. Just one big stupid mistake, takes it all away. And at last, though in love, we have to be apart. So innocent is she that it's unfair to take him away. Love, if only we knew things would turn out this way, would you have done things differently? I miss you. );